Моя статья на английском "Курс лечения - убийство"
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Prologue.
I opened this crime absolutely casually. I casually met the older sister of the killed in a nuthouse kinder, casually started to roll with her in a bed... Chuvash girl from Ishimbay-city – absolutely extraordinary exemplar: thin lines of the face, white skin and black hair, thin bones, tender shoulders... Clever, a painter and a bisexual. In those times she was 18-years old, and she was a student of the first course of the Academy of Arts of Ufa. It was her, who in one of breaks under cheese and red wine between sweet enjoyments and storied Me about her little brother tortured to death in a nuthouse. And I, as a journalist must, did not allow the theme to escape from My hook.
By this strange way the fatal mystery, forever, as it was imagined, buried behind seven stamps of the Bashkir Republic Psychiatric Hospital, rushed out to the freedom. How to not quote here the King Arthur: "The sentence of the God is being executed by various ways."
Rasul Yagudin
(Berlin, Germany)
Cource of Treatmen – Murder
(translator from Russian is unknown)
Don’t ask ever again for whom the bell tolls: it tolls for you.
D. Donne.
Murder. So much terrifying chilling force, as if in a cobra’s gaze, is contained in this word. What horror and darkness covers the human soul at the mere sound of this word! We hear the word murder - and the world around us seems to shift, altering planes and distorting perspectives, turning the usual warm earth into a terrible black hole in the middle of a merciless inanimate space, burning the heart with its icy breath, thrusting the brain with piercing hard needles of indifferent alien stars. Even murder at war, even murder in a fair fight, even murder committed by a murderer, after which, whatever you might say, a hunt will begin, even murder of a murderer who deserves their fate a hundredfold, any murder causes in us, people, horror and disgust.
But today we will be talking not about wartime murder, not about fair fight murder, not about murder committed by a murderer, after which, whatever you might say, a hunt will begin, not about murder of a murderer who deserved his fate a hundredfold... Today we will recall an ordinary young man, who once, when he was alive, was called Timur Rifovich Galeyev, and who was murdered by officials, official civil servants of the Russian Federation – the same Russian Federation that is now, while under the strict guidance of a former writer Tolyan Pristavkin, squeals to the rest of the world about the abolition of the death penalty – employees of the 21st department of the Bashkir Republic Psychiatric Hospital, the one in Vladivostokskaya Street in Ufa (capital-city of Bashkortostan), a thirty-minute walk from the Press House.
Rather, no – we must not be like murderous civil servants in white coats, we shouldn’t distort facts for the sake of a ready-made verdict or diagnosis, we should strictly follow the actual course of events – Timur was finished off in Ufa in Vladivostokskaya. But the murder, the deliberate, methodical, cold-blooded and merciless killing, started back in psychiatric hospitals in his hometown of Ishimbay, then continued in various places, including psychiatric hospitals in Moscow, Novo-Aleksandrovka and Blagoveshchensk.
They first took him when he was twelve years old, and for what? Hell knows, the kid probably got into a fight, maybe more than once, what's the difference, whatever he did, his death, so savage and methodical, stretched out for eight years, wasn’t well-deserved. By some miracle, he, merely a child, long ago, in his native Ishimbay, realized what awaited him, desperately tried to escape from the hands of the adults who were killing him, managing to run away from the psychiatric hospital more than once or twice. As if on a whim, obeying the animal instinct of self-preservation, he, like a tiny kitten that was being hunted, avoided people, crowded places and human dwellings, where imminent death awaited him. He was hiding in some basements (these days, residential buildings don’t even have attics where a human being could hide), he never came home to his dad, mom and little sister, desperately trying to save his life. But he wasn’t allowed to leave, for all the power of the Russian state pursued the little man, all the monstrous power of two ministries at once - the Ministry of Internal Affairs and the Ministry of Health, squeezing him out of life, driving him to hell. Doctors and policemen - they tore the child to shreds, like a pack of wolves, killing, killing, killing, killing him... and not letting him leave.
This is how Timur Galeyev was raising, he didn’t use to play football, he didn’t use to play war, every moment clinging to his passing life, every second at war against a terrible, mysterious, top secret, absolutely closed, incomprehensibly necessary psychiatric system of the Russian state, growing, becoming a man and at the same time dying in this war, slowly becoming a real suicide soldier, who, as he himself understood before everyone else, wasn’t destined to return back - he died at an age suitable purely for a soldier, twenty years old, in warm and sunny May, when his peers were finishing their service.
In fact, I’ve known people who weren’t doing bad in psychiatric hospitals. What else do you need – they give you food and drink, they wash you, they do your laundry, they don’t force you to work, and all that’s demanded in return is to be good and obedient.
For example, I know a certain someone who, after killing all his family: a wife and two kids – ended up in a psychiatric hospital, and six months later I accidentally met him in Lenina Street in Ufa, it was a wonderful sunny day in spring, and we even walked a couple of blocks down the street together, chatting about this and that.
After all, in a psychiatric hospital, like anywhere else, basically, the main thing is to know when to get it up your ass, especially in our sad times, when those who don’t want to get it up their asses are smeared into dust, so a psychiatric hospital is kind of a small model of society, where all the kids are like the big guys, where they’ve got their own masters, godfathers, errand boys and slaves. And where they’ve inevitably got their martyrs, the people who perish in a struggle for human dignity and freedom. They will perish in a struggle knowing that the struggle is hopeless. They are far from talkative and eloquent, far from being able to put forward clever slogans (take Timur Galeyev – he never received any formal education), they are far from broad-shouldered and brave, far from being able to overcome despair and refrain from tears. But the most important thing they still do is that, with the very fact of their existence, they crush the established sick order of things, pulling the rug out from under the feet of their murderers, the civil servants, depriving them of confidence in their omnipotence, disrupting the measured course of a slave life. Even when crying and shouting, they hammer the system to the last – resisting, resisting, resisting, resisting... And then the “doctors” face the inevitable - this one must be killed.
His little sister had already grown up and became a first-year student in Ufa, when their parents in Ishimbay were officially informed that Timur allegedly contracted tuberculosis in his Blagoveshchensk madhouse. True, at that time the doctors hadn’t yet decided which way to slice... that is, sorry, to diagnose Timur to death, and just in case they began to hint at a possible tumor somewhere in the brain. The parents were far away, in Ishimbay. Naturally, the sad need to pay her brother a visit in the madhouse fell on his underaged sister’s shoulders. Blagoveshchensk isn’t a short walking distance, especially in the dark gloomy weather of December 1999, just before the Happy New Year. Fortunately, at the right moment there happened to be a certain friend-with-a-car nearby, so he drove her there. In search of her brother. It turned out to be difficult. At the reception, some fat creature in a white coat with an indescribably obscene expression on its face, showing disdain with all its existence, with deliberately slow mocking movements began flipping through some pieces of paper. (I wonder what the whole circus was about? - Maybe she was hoping that she would be asked to act quickly, and then she could quickly call the orderlies, write down "agitated", pack the girl in the hospital and thus, save herself from having to rummage through the papers?) Finally, she seemed to have found what she’d been looking for. It turned out that Timur Galeyev wasn’t there at all, but... in Novo-Aleksandrovka, turned out he’d been transferred there, which was complete news for the whole world - turned out that patients in madhouses are constantly being thrown back and forth, without even informing anyone, so that one fine day a person may not be found at all - disappeared, they’d say, vanished into thin air, they’d say, we don’t have a patient by that name, where is he? – Good luck trying to find him, ha-ha!!! However, this time, they found him, okay there. And the friend-with-a-car took the girl there, to Novo-Aleksandrovka. Now they started looking for Timur there. Looked like they found him. And the hospital staff brought in... a complete stranger. The doctors and orderlies explained this as follows: "We have a lot of Galeyevs." Delightful. It looks like a pile of children's toys, where you can't find the right toy right away. Because of the complete mess.
Let's now go back to Blagoveshchensk.
In Blagoveshchensk, during their absence, nothing had changed – everything still smelled like some kind of abomination and the very same fat creature in a white coat with the same indescribably obscene expression on its face, still showing disdain with all its appearance, all the same deliberately mocking movements continued to serve the Russian state.
Timur Galeyev, as it turned out in the end, was already on the final frontier – in the 21st department of the BRPH – as you come inside the territory, turn left, all the way across the hospital grounds – into a building resembling a mix between a modern barn and torture dungeons of the times of Catherine II. This is the 21st department of the Bashkir Republik Psychiatric Hospital – the place which Timur Galeyev never left alive.
I opened this crime absolutely casually. I casually met the older sister of the killed in a nuthouse kinder, casually started to roll with her in a bed... Chuvash girl from Ishimbay-city – absolutely extraordinary exemplar: thin lines of the face, white skin and black hair, thin bones, tender shoulders... Clever, a painter and a bisexual. In those times she was 18-years old, and she was a student of the first course of the Academy of Arts of Ufa. It was her, who in one of breaks under cheese and red wine between sweet enjoyments and storied Me about her little brother tortured to death in a nuthouse. And I, as a journalist must, did not allow the theme to escape from My hook.
By this strange way the fatal mystery, forever, as it was imagined, buried behind seven stamps of the Bashkir Republic Psychiatric Hospital, rushed out to the freedom. How to not quote here the King Arthur: "The sentence of the God is being executed by various ways."
Rasul Yagudin
(Berlin, Germany)
Cource of Treatmen – Murder
(translator from Russian is unknown)
Don’t ask ever again for whom the bell tolls: it tolls for you.
D. Donne.
Murder. So much terrifying chilling force, as if in a cobra’s gaze, is contained in this word. What horror and darkness covers the human soul at the mere sound of this word! We hear the word murder - and the world around us seems to shift, altering planes and distorting perspectives, turning the usual warm earth into a terrible black hole in the middle of a merciless inanimate space, burning the heart with its icy breath, thrusting the brain with piercing hard needles of indifferent alien stars. Even murder at war, even murder in a fair fight, even murder committed by a murderer, after which, whatever you might say, a hunt will begin, even murder of a murderer who deserves their fate a hundredfold, any murder causes in us, people, horror and disgust.
But today we will be talking not about wartime murder, not about fair fight murder, not about murder committed by a murderer, after which, whatever you might say, a hunt will begin, not about murder of a murderer who deserved his fate a hundredfold... Today we will recall an ordinary young man, who once, when he was alive, was called Timur Rifovich Galeyev, and who was murdered by officials, official civil servants of the Russian Federation – the same Russian Federation that is now, while under the strict guidance of a former writer Tolyan Pristavkin, squeals to the rest of the world about the abolition of the death penalty – employees of the 21st department of the Bashkir Republic Psychiatric Hospital, the one in Vladivostokskaya Street in Ufa (capital-city of Bashkortostan), a thirty-minute walk from the Press House.
Rather, no – we must not be like murderous civil servants in white coats, we shouldn’t distort facts for the sake of a ready-made verdict or diagnosis, we should strictly follow the actual course of events – Timur was finished off in Ufa in Vladivostokskaya. But the murder, the deliberate, methodical, cold-blooded and merciless killing, started back in psychiatric hospitals in his hometown of Ishimbay, then continued in various places, including psychiatric hospitals in Moscow, Novo-Aleksandrovka and Blagoveshchensk.
They first took him when he was twelve years old, and for what? Hell knows, the kid probably got into a fight, maybe more than once, what's the difference, whatever he did, his death, so savage and methodical, stretched out for eight years, wasn’t well-deserved. By some miracle, he, merely a child, long ago, in his native Ishimbay, realized what awaited him, desperately tried to escape from the hands of the adults who were killing him, managing to run away from the psychiatric hospital more than once or twice. As if on a whim, obeying the animal instinct of self-preservation, he, like a tiny kitten that was being hunted, avoided people, crowded places and human dwellings, where imminent death awaited him. He was hiding in some basements (these days, residential buildings don’t even have attics where a human being could hide), he never came home to his dad, mom and little sister, desperately trying to save his life. But he wasn’t allowed to leave, for all the power of the Russian state pursued the little man, all the monstrous power of two ministries at once - the Ministry of Internal Affairs and the Ministry of Health, squeezing him out of life, driving him to hell. Doctors and policemen - they tore the child to shreds, like a pack of wolves, killing, killing, killing, killing him... and not letting him leave.
This is how Timur Galeyev was raising, he didn’t use to play football, he didn’t use to play war, every moment clinging to his passing life, every second at war against a terrible, mysterious, top secret, absolutely closed, incomprehensibly necessary psychiatric system of the Russian state, growing, becoming a man and at the same time dying in this war, slowly becoming a real suicide soldier, who, as he himself understood before everyone else, wasn’t destined to return back - he died at an age suitable purely for a soldier, twenty years old, in warm and sunny May, when his peers were finishing their service.
In fact, I’ve known people who weren’t doing bad in psychiatric hospitals. What else do you need – they give you food and drink, they wash you, they do your laundry, they don’t force you to work, and all that’s demanded in return is to be good and obedient.
For example, I know a certain someone who, after killing all his family: a wife and two kids – ended up in a psychiatric hospital, and six months later I accidentally met him in Lenina Street in Ufa, it was a wonderful sunny day in spring, and we even walked a couple of blocks down the street together, chatting about this and that.
After all, in a psychiatric hospital, like anywhere else, basically, the main thing is to know when to get it up your ass, especially in our sad times, when those who don’t want to get it up their asses are smeared into dust, so a psychiatric hospital is kind of a small model of society, where all the kids are like the big guys, where they’ve got their own masters, godfathers, errand boys and slaves. And where they’ve inevitably got their martyrs, the people who perish in a struggle for human dignity and freedom. They will perish in a struggle knowing that the struggle is hopeless. They are far from talkative and eloquent, far from being able to put forward clever slogans (take Timur Galeyev – he never received any formal education), they are far from broad-shouldered and brave, far from being able to overcome despair and refrain from tears. But the most important thing they still do is that, with the very fact of their existence, they crush the established sick order of things, pulling the rug out from under the feet of their murderers, the civil servants, depriving them of confidence in their omnipotence, disrupting the measured course of a slave life. Even when crying and shouting, they hammer the system to the last – resisting, resisting, resisting, resisting... And then the “doctors” face the inevitable - this one must be killed.
His little sister had already grown up and became a first-year student in Ufa, when their parents in Ishimbay were officially informed that Timur allegedly contracted tuberculosis in his Blagoveshchensk madhouse. True, at that time the doctors hadn’t yet decided which way to slice... that is, sorry, to diagnose Timur to death, and just in case they began to hint at a possible tumor somewhere in the brain. The parents were far away, in Ishimbay. Naturally, the sad need to pay her brother a visit in the madhouse fell on his underaged sister’s shoulders. Blagoveshchensk isn’t a short walking distance, especially in the dark gloomy weather of December 1999, just before the Happy New Year. Fortunately, at the right moment there happened to be a certain friend-with-a-car nearby, so he drove her there. In search of her brother. It turned out to be difficult. At the reception, some fat creature in a white coat with an indescribably obscene expression on its face, showing disdain with all its existence, with deliberately slow mocking movements began flipping through some pieces of paper. (I wonder what the whole circus was about? - Maybe she was hoping that she would be asked to act quickly, and then she could quickly call the orderlies, write down "agitated", pack the girl in the hospital and thus, save herself from having to rummage through the papers?) Finally, she seemed to have found what she’d been looking for. It turned out that Timur Galeyev wasn’t there at all, but... in Novo-Aleksandrovka, turned out he’d been transferred there, which was complete news for the whole world - turned out that patients in madhouses are constantly being thrown back and forth, without even informing anyone, so that one fine day a person may not be found at all - disappeared, they’d say, vanished into thin air, they’d say, we don’t have a patient by that name, where is he? – Good luck trying to find him, ha-ha!!! However, this time, they found him, okay there. And the friend-with-a-car took the girl there, to Novo-Aleksandrovka. Now they started looking for Timur there. Looked like they found him. And the hospital staff brought in... a complete stranger. The doctors and orderlies explained this as follows: "We have a lot of Galeyevs." Delightful. It looks like a pile of children's toys, where you can't find the right toy right away. Because of the complete mess.
Let's now go back to Blagoveshchensk.
In Blagoveshchensk, during their absence, nothing had changed – everything still smelled like some kind of abomination and the very same fat creature in a white coat with the same indescribably obscene expression on its face, still showing disdain with all its appearance, all the same deliberately mocking movements continued to serve the Russian state.
Timur Galeyev, as it turned out in the end, was already on the final frontier – in the 21st department of the BRPH – as you come inside the territory, turn left, all the way across the hospital grounds – into a building resembling a mix between a modern barn and torture dungeons of the times of Catherine II. This is the 21st department of the Bashkir Republik Psychiatric Hospital – the place which Timur Galeyev never left alive.